life as we know it

Well life is coming along. Slow yet lighting fast at the same time. hurry up and wait! the story of my live. It seems like everything is hurry up do this, yet wait we can't fit you in yet. i think i've gotten my life together and ready to go to Seattle for Wyatt's surgery. Work is driving me crazy. My coworkers are lazy slobs. They just wanna come to work sit on their asses and get paid. but never actually do anything. we are getting inspected by the fed tomorrow to renew our grant. you know our whole running budget. And they could care less. I have been busting my butt to get all the to do lists done. My bosses love me and thank me everyday for everything i've been doing. I have been asked to come back for the next program. They say they are very happy to have somebody there that actually wants to work and want me to know they appreciate it. It really helps at these trying times. I feel so ready to quit and walk away most day. But knowing that the boss people appreciate me and want me to stick around. 3 more weeks of this is all i have to do. 3 more weeks of the idiots. and the idiots will not be asked to return next program. I can take solice in that fact. hmmmm so tired so tired. must rest now. No rest for the wicked.

life today

I completely forgot about this blog. not that anybody reads it. I have been super busy. I've been working. YAYEE for that! but wyatt has gotten worse now. I am struggling to keep up with his needs and work and not forget his sisters all at the same time. We have now decided he will be getting a g-tube. I feel horribly guilty about this, but it will help him qualify him for the extra help i need to be able to care for him. ATM he's stuck in the middle ground where he's not disabled enough to get extra help from any programs, but to much extra work for regular daycares to care for him. I wish i could just stay home with him. He does so much better that way. BUT someone has to make money to pay the bills since his father isn't paying childsupport anymore. Monday the 13th we go for the surgical consultation. Not sure where i'm at with all this. I've compartmentalized atm and will be dealing with later. I don't have anytime to work through my emotions right now. All i know is i am doing what is best for my son and that is all that matters.