life today

I completely forgot about this blog. not that anybody reads it. I have been super busy. I've been working. YAYEE for that! but wyatt has gotten worse now. I am struggling to keep up with his needs and work and not forget his sisters all at the same time. We have now decided he will be getting a g-tube. I feel horribly guilty about this, but it will help him qualify him for the extra help i need to be able to care for him. ATM he's stuck in the middle ground where he's not disabled enough to get extra help from any programs, but to much extra work for regular daycares to care for him. I wish i could just stay home with him. He does so much better that way. BUT someone has to make money to pay the bills since his father isn't paying childsupport anymore. Monday the 13th we go for the surgical consultation. Not sure where i'm at with all this. I've compartmentalized atm and will be dealing with later. I don't have anytime to work through my emotions right now. All i know is i am doing what is best for my son and that is all that matters.